Fighting Feeling Distanced From God
08/08/2021 I think every believer ebbs and flows in their faith. One moment your up then your down. One moment your on fire with the Holy Spirit, another moment your kicking yourself for falling head first into a barrel of sin. What a battle this life is. They're believers we know who seem like they have it all together and are on fire for God every second of everyday and ohhh how I admire that.
When someone accepts Christ for the first time or re-commits' their life to Christ sometimes people forget the work ahead. It leads some new believers to think there are no new trials ahead as you uproot sin out of your life. As you learn to despise sin. There is, in my opinion, little to no Warning labels you'll hear when the pastor of a church ask you to come down to the alter and commit yourself. Jesus puts many warning labels for the criteria of following him, his audience in that being : . And of course following Jesus is eternalllllllllly worth it. But as we spiritually mature we all come to a bridge we're scared to cross...persistence. Paul says to give new believers milk not meat comparing the infancy of a toddler to that of a mature adult in Christ. Where is that in between stage? Where do we as humans fall off. Where do we as persistent followers make it across into spiritual maturity?
Maybe it's a practice makes perfect scenario . Rest assured if we ask God for wisdom in this and persist in seeking Jesus, Holy Spirit led, we'll grow into meat eating machines.
With all that pretext above this is my attempt to study the art of "Persistence, Somewhere >< Milk and Meat"
This page I'll dedicate to writing about persistence to following Christ in the worst of times when we fall off the wagon and end up distancing ourselves from God. When we fall off the horse. When we feel shame and choose to purposefully distance ourselves from God and fall head first into the barrel of sin. Wish me luck, I'll come back to this in a few days.
Waiting on a prayer, and then persisting/working in the mean time until we get the answer Waiting sucks. In a generation of fast food, fast charging, convenience stores and vending machines, we want if fast. I find it difficult to wait for an answer. Who doesn't? There are many areas in the Bible where I see legendary servants of God waiting for an answer in continued prayer and fasting. Daniel prayed and fasted for 21 days before an angel, I believe was Jesus, appeared and gave him the answers he sought. When the angel arrived he pretty much said "I heard you on the first day of prayer. Sorry it took me a minute to get here I was fighting a demon over in persia.
Daniel 10:11-13, “And he said unto me, O Daniel, a man greatly beloved, understand the words that I speak unto thee, and stand upright: for unto thee am I now sent. And when he had spoken this word unto me, I stood trembling. Then said he unto me, Fear not, Daniel: for from the first day that thou didst set thine heart to understand, and to chasten thyself before thy God, thy words were heard, and I am come for thy words. But the prince of the kingdom of Persia [a demon] withstood me one and twenty days: but, lo, Michael [an archangel], one of the chief princes, came to help me; and I remained there with the kings of Persia.”
Maybe there is a lesson in here for us to chill out and wait.Exodus 14:14 There some buearacratic processes taking place. I just think, what If I asked God for resolve on an issue and God dispatched an angel to go all the way to my door to help me. Ideally, I'd like to be ready and have my house in order to welcome my guest. I hope, like Daniel, the angel would tap me on the shoulder mid prayer and say "Got your message, I'm here to help". I think if the Angel were to come and I wasn't prepared, my house was dirty and out of order, I was acting sinful when he showed up that would suck and I'd be ashamed. I think this is another good example of why persistence and obedience are crucial so we're ready for when God answers our prayers and gives purpose & objectives in our life. Jesus talks a lot about being ready, the 5 women with oil in their lamps and so on.
Even further: Because God knows the very number of hairs on our heads Luke 12:7  then perhaps he can see our faithfulness and persistence far off in the future as well. If I was going to meet someone at a destination on a 3 day driving trip and I could see into the future that when I arrived the person I was meeting wasn't going to be there, why would I ever go? There is another parable Jesus says about a master who leaves his servants with money and comes back to find some of them working and some of them being lazy. Guess who the master takes care of. Read this ...it's brutal and truthful Mathhew25:14-30
Build Your Doll House There is a story that I heard on the radio from pastor David Jeremiah. I tried to link it here but couldn't find it. It equates how persistence and faith pay off. We know God's grace is sufficient alone 2 Corinthians 12:9 , yet I still found this story rewarding and relevant to this subject of persistence. A little girl came into the living room and asked her dad to build her a dollhouse. The father, reading the newspaper, agreed and said "yes dear, I'll build you a dollhouse". The daughter, overcome with joy, ran out into the front yard and begin collecting toys, making a place for the dollhouse and preparing a blanket stretched across the green grass. The father saw her doing this outside the window and asked his wife nearby, " What is she doing out there"?. His wife said, " She's preparing a place for the dollhouse you said you would build for her". The father, moved by his daughters faith, jumped in his truck and bolted to the store to buy the materials for the dollhouse. Bringing the supplies home, He built the dollhouse for his daughter that day and met her in the yard.
This is by no means a perfect representation of Gods perfect love but it does help us understand that our acts of faithfulness, obedience, and knowing in our hearts that our father loves us and will provide when we persist is literally the craziest thing ever, ever , ever , Hallelujah. This verse is related --> Matthew 7:7